Hey there TR71777, sorry to hear you're having troubles.
The good news is, you're talking about it. I recommend you reach out to some programs that will help with your current issue. I've known a few people in your shoes that have dealt with their issues, sadly there isn't a simple one answer for everyone. One thing however is there is something to help with everyone. Some may feel the need to talk about their issues, some need further assistance. Hopefully things like family and hobbies can help you in your difficult times. There are many programs and places that can help you out, and I highly recommend you take a look at a few of them.
Here is a video by a Joe Rogan podcast speaking with Medal of Honor Vet Dakota Meyer on dealing with PTSD:
Now truthfully, what helps Mr. Meyer may help him, but may not work for everyone. The reason why I link a video like this is that it illustrates that you're not alone and that there are avenues to help with your issues.
What I'd like to re-iterate is that you've taken the first step in establishing a problem and wanting some guidance. I'll be honest I didn't expect to see a post such as this on lcpdfr.com, none the less it's still important to us all here.
-JAM.